The Greater Good & in the Scheme of Things

Well, the title seemed good in my mind, but let's work with it anyway, shall we?

Deep down, I am an aspiring enterpreneur. Even studied it in college. All that textbook learnin' is great, but I'm looking for real world experience. Bottom line is that the only one holding me back is...well...me. I get so wrapped around the idea of fearing of the outcome, that I don't get past the inception stage with a lot of my ideas. I get that a-ha lightbulb moment, write the idea down, and then do nothing with it. It becomes an idle thought. Currently, my biggest hurdle is beginning my promotions company. Last summer I was all about helping a mutual friend of mines and getting his project off the ground. As the months went on, a lot of drama broke out, and I played my part in it and had to cut ties to refocus and start fresh for 2007. It looks nice and all promoting the company on my myspace page; past that nothing has come to fruition. Yet.

I haven't given up. I need to just calm the hell down, and stop overthinking things and just do something, and get it done.

My friend Ben is my go to buddy with all of my arts & music concerns. He understands, he's a dancer and an instructor, and owner of his own dance company. We have our heart-to-heart sessions about are artistic and entreprenrial endeavors. We went out for burgers and drinks last night, and he showed me a flyer that he was on for a dance performance he had done recently. I squealed while looking at the flyer, "Ooh, can I have your autograph?" It was just so cool to see someone I know on a flyer like that. I'm easily amused :)

But during our hang out, and during many other hang outs, he told me that I should sit down and make a list of what I would like to accomplish, no matter how big or small. Simple enough, a list; the pressure of completing items off the list is a different story. I've taken his advice and done so, but it's in need of updating. Here's what I need to include:

*throw a party for the college-age set
*kick the networking into high gear
*work with an established artist to get promotions company off the ground (floor)
*create a business plan for promotions company

Not saying that I'm in a rut, my '9-5' life has improved. The pr company that I've been interning for since last August has hired me on part time to help out in the office. That doesn't even include when I work street team events. That was one of my goals, to get hired on by the company and I've done it! That item was on my mental list by the way.

All in all I've learned I need to just put the fear aside for a moment and just be risky for a moment. If it doesn't work out, go to the next item on the list, if it works out, all the better!